I’m sure at some point you’ve joined a forum, whether a legit forum website or Facebook group revolving around a topic. It’s great because you meet people with a common interest.
It’s not always great.
Growing up I had a passion for collecting toys, it was something I never grew out of until recently because it became toxic. I collected for so long because I built a web series on YouTube about it and it blew up for me. So my sudden “internet fame” if you want to even go there excited me, and it led to a lot of great opportunities over the years, but it took over my life.
I became so engrossed in everything. People of all ages would comment on my videos, mostly kids and teens due to the subject matter, I’m only 25 by the way, and sometimes would write negative things out of jealousy. I had become an influencer in my community. And when people were negative, it bothered me because I always do my best to treat everyone nicely. But I got so caught up in the comments and had no self control when it came to replying.
Now I know you’re just feeding the bullies when you reply as they want a rise out of you, but it didn’t matter as I was so engrossed. Eventually I made a second Facebook for my followers so I can interact with them daily and more personally. Now this was a great idea at the time as I made a lot of online friends, but this too took over my life. I joined and created groups revolving around collecting and people were always so opinionated.
Sometimes people would knock a product of a company who sponsored me and I, with no self control sometimes, felt the need to stick my nose in. Then I’d get caught up in dumb internet drama with people I didn’t know and it would sometimes put me in a bad mood. I guess I felt I had to be the hero, but there was no reward for it. I was well respected because of my reputation but that’s not the point.
My Ex would constantly encourage me not to respond, and sometimes I’d listen, but most of the time I wouldn’t. Plus I felt the need to outdo these people when they found a new toy and I had to run all over town to find it.
When I look back at this behavior I don’t know where it came from, but it’s pretty sad. I spent money constantly and my Ex, family and friends told me to stop but I wouldn’t. I was addicted.
When my Ex broke up with me I realized all this and just went cold turkey. I deactivated my second Facebook as I didn’t need that drama in my life as well as stopped spending money on toys.
Since my Ex broke up with me I have been researching about relationships and how to resolve what I’ve been going through and what it means and such as she was my first. I became confused and joined a few Relationship forums to express my feelings and get help.
Well, I feel now like I’m going backwards. It’s great to get help, but just the other day I realized what do these people really know if they’re also on here everyday? Sure they have experience, but they’re also probably bitter and just as broken as I am. How can they honestly help me? Everyone tells you something different and they also don’t know my Ex, they’re just basing their opinion on how I explained my situation. And once again people would get bitter with me if I didn’t want to listen. Some people were extremely harsh and while my emotions are down right now I really can’t handle that. Then people would start yelling at each other for telling me different things.
It’s awful.
I’ve been so confused about it all that I’m just going to go with my gut, which is what I should do to begin with.
My point of this post is that it’s great to find people you can share in a hobby with online, but don’t join a forum. There’s no repercussions online. People can say and act however they want and honestly they can be very bitter people who are lost and looking to vent/complain to those who will listen. I’m guilty.
But as I’ve said in my other posts, I’m starting to take a step back and realize what I’m doing and the harm of it. The only person I should listen to is my therapist who has no real opinion on the situation as she’s only there to listen versus my friends and family who will just protect me.
If you or someone you know is getting caught up in a forum or internet drama, take a step back and see how it’s impacting your life. It might be driving you crazy and you don’t realize it anymore because you’re so deep into it and obsessed. One of the best things I did after losing my Ex was deactivating my second Facebook. I felt a huge weight lifted.
And if you are first thinking of joining a forum, keep this in mind as it may be a regret down the line.
Now I have nothing truly against forums, I just think they’re a place where negativity harvests as you interact with all kinds of people.
Be cautious.